SOMETHING YOU NEVER HAD.

Yesterday night, i decided to watch this old movie. Its called 'How to Lose a Guy in 10 days'. I've watched the movie a couple times but this was the first time that i cried. 

There's a part in the movie where she said 'You can't lose something you never had'. 

Honestly, that made sense to me more than ever. 

Why am i this sad over a guy who wasn't even mine? Why does it bother me so much when he doesn't even like me?

So, when people ask me, i just say that i don't care anymore. Because there's this Islamic saying where we need to accept everything with an open heart. It's all apart of God's plan.

Who am I to question what His plan is just for the sake of my happiness. Who am I to be selfish for my own happiness. I accept the lesson i am receiving now because its something i need to learn on my own. 

When i tell my friends how i feel or anything, i don't want their sympathy. It's just me sharing my life with them. 

I know some worry. But I'll be fine. I hope.