SPEAK UP!

The other day, there was this small issue with my classmates. It was something that was easy to handle but well, lemme tell you. 

There is 48 people in that class. And yet many kept quiet and stood by watching some of them act very childish. Ok sure, you may ask why i didn't do anything. When this happened, i was busy at home, enjoying my free time with my family. Who opens the class whatsapp group when you're at home that much. I personally don't. 

When i did had the time to read everything, i was pretty disappointed with everyone in the class. I thought that someone would actually say something about it. I know who is capable of saying something and those who aren't. And since no one said anything, i simply just took the easy way out. I just changed the topic and be as discretely angry as i could. 

I was particularly disappointed with this one guy. I pretty much look highly of him and with his extra-curiccular activities, i thought he would say something. It was something completely wrong and yet he just tweeted about it. I was so mad that i ignored him for a week ( & counting! ) If someone like him couldn't do something as simple as this, then whats left for us, the small people. 

It just sucked because I expected more from him. I hoped. And thats when you get disappointed, I guess. 

The other thing that I don't get is why my classmates still think theres a 'barrier' where people can't say anything freely. I mean, am i such a bad leader that people can't say what they want anymore. Am i such a bad person to deprive people of their capability of speaking their minds with confident? 

I never wanted a situation like this for my batch. 

I just wish they know they can speak up in class without feeling judged. I just wish they know what every they say, i'll support it or i'll try to understand it. 

AM I THE BAD GUY?

For the past few weeks, I've been having my midterm exams. All the exams are spread out quite evenly which sounds good and all but when you add in the assignments and presentations that come alongside all those stuffs in class, you'll understand when i say, i'm sleep deprived. 

To top it all off, I've been dealing with some 'friend' issues. 

Okay the issue thats been bothering me is that how people can easily make a judgement call based on one side of a story. 

In every story theres always two sides of the story. Both believing that they're right and believing that they're the victim in the situation. You will always perceive yourself as the one who is done wrong, never really the "bad guy". 

Its easier to blame others than except your faults, right?

Maybe you guys won't believe me but somehow my side of the story hasn't been a wide spread amongst my fellow friends because i chose not to let people know. But since then, people have been misjudging me and its getting annoying. 

So I admit I did tell a few people but it somehow spread and now most people know my side of the story. I can't speak for most of them but the ones that I told did have a change in perspective on how they see things about me and the issue in hand. 

Most were understanding and supportive of me. But of course, it seemed like they took sides. Everyday there would be whispers in class. Every small thing i did was interpreted in a new way and resulted in me tiptoeing to do anything in class. 

I couldn't make a weird face expression without people trying to assume things. I couldn't go to the toilet without people assuming things. OK. To be frank, yes I went out of the class because I couldn't take seeing them too close. 

What would you have me do? Simply explode then and there? For me, if i'm angry with a situation, i'd remove myself from that current situation and focus on calming myself down. Thats the patience I have. 

Its better to not let yourself having to endure the pain and fake like you're alright. Thus, I thought I did make a good call on that one. 

Other than that, I guess I just couldn't take the fake-ness of her anymore so there was a few faces that i made. Ok just admit it, if you found out someone was talking bad about you, would you really not get annoyed with that person?

And so, I've discovered a perfect revenge. 

I do absolutely nothing. If with me breathing bothers her, then I'll just breathe the heck out of it. I don't need to do much to annoy her because she's already annoyed with me. 

Trust me guys, I say this with complete faith. 

I. HAVE. NO. IDEA. WHY. SHE'S. MAD. AT. ME. 

and now, i simply don't care. 

So am I still the bad guy here?

For more details regarding this issue, you're welcome to ask me directly. 

LAUN-DRAG.

I hate, hate washing clothes using my hands. I am a firm believer of using the washing machine. 

I know what you're gonna be thinking, 'gosh ermi, you can save money' and such. But I just don't like doing it. I can do other things to while waiting for it to wash in the washing machine. I can save time. 

(bak kata pepatah, masa itu emas - bahasa jiwa bangsa) 

Since this semester, my current block is the furthest from my usual laundry spot so I have to find a day where I'm completely devoted to go there. Usually, I wait for someone to accompany me because its soo far and because I'm already used to having someone come and do the laundry with me. 

But recently, due to the piles of work and self responsibilities to my midterm exams and what not, i can't seem to find the time to go there. Also, it always rains when I go there, I might catch a cold. (translation: I'm just lazy)
I had to do my piles of laundry by hand. 

I was determined. Placed my phone in my pants with my earphones in my ears with the volume on blasts. I borrowed two buckets and the brush and what not. Then i spent like one hours doing it. 

Basically, my friends teased me throughout the process because they've never seen me doing my laundry by hand but you know, i just wanted the torture to be over.

Finally, i finished it all. And my sweet friends were so proud of me. (GRIN!)
I was happy with the outcome. My clothes smelt real good and its oddly satisfying. 

Conclusion / Moral of the story. 

Dear future husband, we better have a washing machine. I ain't gonna wash clothes by hand anymore. I don't need a dryer, just the washing machine. But if theres extra money, theres no wrong in helping out.